My 'almost' suicidal lyric

Acid-D

Im on my brothers name cant be bothered to re-log, i aint tried chattin this yet its straght from the paper so wat yall think?

I have a $$$$ing life i dont like,
Everything goes wrong, nothing goes right,
The promised land isn't in sight,
I'm losing the fight, so lets get high tonight,
Weed is the only thing that makes life worth living,
And it's the only thing that makes me wanna keep breathing,
In my heart i've lost all feeling,
I wanna end it all but the weed is so appealing.
I'm only happy wen im stoned,
Or wen im with a ho,
Can someone please tell me where my life is gonna go?
Cause i dont know, i aint got a $$$$ing clue,
Aint got nuttin to do, got nuttin to lose,
Got nuttin to prove, cause no1 gives a $$$$ about me,
A mediocre mc, writin lyrics in ma room tears runnin down ma cheeks,
And i cant sleep, i cant shut my eyes
Cause i keep seein this girl that i want to be mine,
But at the same time i see this $$$$$,
That grabbed my heart and ripped it out of my chest,
Chewed it up, spat it out and went off for nex $$$$,
Thats $$$$ed up $$$$,
And whats more, ma mates, seem to just run away
Wen i get within two feet of them and try to say 'hey!'
But $$$$ it, $$$$ em all, $$$$ brian, $$$$ hollie,
$$$$ zoe too if you dont want me, i tried to say sorry,
But its never enough, i'll grab my wrists and cut,
Girls aint nuttin but $$$$$es and sluts,
I've had enough of tryin to act tough,
All i wanna do, is find someone to love,
And settle down away from this $$$$ hole of a town,
Full of wannabe 'g's and $$$$ing clowns.
And theres no $$$$ing job i wanna hold down,
I've never felt as low as i do right now.
Ok so ive got the rest of my life to live,
But tell that to ya momma cause i dont give a $$$$,
I ain't got a girl, i aint rich,
I live at home with ma mum and we're always arguein,
I got myself a car but no money to run it,
If i could get some petrol i'd probably snort it,
Anything to take me away from reality,
Smoke, drink, take drugs, well just a bit of weed.
(unfinished)
Comments please!
I am feeling alot better tho thank you.

Acid-D

Come on surely someone can comment on this.. good, bad,sick,you need a councilor... anything...

DJ Fusion

Blad, I think you need a councillor,
Only kiddin but I think you shud blaze another ounze in ya,
See you tokin that spliff in your sig,
Makes me wanna bill up and roll a big zig,
Anyway, dont worry about ho's,
All there good for is makin a bit of dough,
Dont worry about not havin a girl right now,
Chirpsin around should work downtown

Yes I know im blabbering but ive been blazing.
Ah well, it's good that youve let your feelings out now.
I wanna do one of these soon... about my personal n $$$$. Safe for the inspiration and I hope u feel betta soon.
BTW im not a chich or a girl lol, just hiiigh.