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I-RoNiK

mum i wish you made it to my 17th birthday
if it was down to me you wouldnt have left in the first place
i know thats not possible and i know that things could be worse
for what if you lived an it was me in dat hearse?

what if i left you, an broke ya heart like you broke mine?
could ya live witout me? or would ya turn to the wine?
could ya cope without my presence, and the nights I came home late?
maybe you'd be hurt like me - but put it all down to fate?

cuz maybe life is jus a game we play without the instructions
that is ended by death with jus one act of destruction
a failure of the heart, has left me lookin for answers-
closed off into a world where i wont take any chances

if it was me you saw in bed that day, lifeless, ya last breath already taken
would you have screamed like me? or double checked you weren't mistaken?
all these questions unanswered they got my tears makin tracks
the fact is that your gone ma and your not comin back-

so i accept i chose this life and this was jus meant to be-
an to be a stronger person all those sights I had to see-
startin over with a new philosophy-
im gonna live my life my way an set myself free.